its that moment again where i completely dont know why i feel soo down and feel super tear-eyed all day long: but i know it is something i have to fix and try get back on track of moving fast forward again!
i just can not stand to lose the battle of making something gorgeous out of my life and that of my sons.....
---------------Just to help you understand a little better from what i am saying/trying to share with you:
i have had a terribly hard upbringing, and it caused alot of hardship in my life recently. Well id say for the past 6years. Now, i like to believe that i have have reached a stage in my life where i can not afford to slow down. Unfortunately it seems as though that is EXACTLY all i am doing !!!! How does one cope and try to keep coming back up every time i buckle and hit the floor... or sometimes even deeper?!
Giggle'sDay
what a emotional day it was indeed!! ugh, i literally snapped at everything and anything :s its not fair on anyone, nor is it fair on me to spend my time on uselessness :( (boooo)
After yesterdays conflict i had with my mum, -something id rather not share at this moment-
i just stayed in my room all morning: to try avoid her and not be the cause to start another friction. After my morning errands and a quick visit to the Post Office:
i managed to take my sister Rabia to the dentist: for my dentist see her: as Rabia technically used my appointment instead. Because the next available appointment wasnt untill 7th of July. And you know with her decaying tooth and super discomfort, i couldnt let her suffer for another moment (bless her) So yh shes been giving a 5day anti-biotic course, which she has been asked to finish the dose, before returning to the dentist a week later 0_O
goshhh till this day i wouldnt why it is Rabia is sooooo scared for life from the dentist, like seriously. she turns all white and etc. SO bad so, that she actually asked to be put to sleep whilst being taking care of on the dentist chair...... YIKES!
all this from a 13 year old... spooky right? haha
woooohoooooo!
finally, i managed to Video-Skype Melissa and catch up with her; as its been over 5weeks since we last really really caught up. wow, how time flies eyy (subhanaAllaah!)
ohh Paulina is one CRAZY woman too: now this woman: for her birthday, which was on Tuesday- she will be celebrating it this Saturday by going by 10 pubs, fancy dressed in costumes starting with letter 'P' or 'Z'. loool other then Zero and Zorro, i havent been able to come up with anything for the letter 'Z' (goodluck lol)
hmmm as a date, to catch up with Melissa next week: my brother Kadafi managed to get me booked in for a Pedi and a Medi. aawww dont i feel a little pampered here <3
oh gosh, finally after pregnancy and all that comes with it: you feel normal again once you get offered things, or someone does something nice for you (i HEART you Kadafii!)
other then feeling down from time to time: my day has been pretty ok today (Alhamdulilaah)
LetterForLaith -Day60-
ohhh wow, i dont know where to star with my little bubble here!
he just amazes me each and every moment i spend with him. Whether itd be him starting into my eyes or burping all over the place: he TRULY touches my heart, mind and soul with this warmth feeling of Love and Uber peacefulness!!!!!!!
Today he was feeling a little sad; im thinking maybe because i took him out longer then i have done so in the past....
He's growing gorgeously: and the poor thing scratched his cheek almost open :o
My heart literally almost stopped and actaully skipped a beat or four: when my mother pointed it out to me. He is ok though, just a little pink. I feel such a failure OMG ugh, as i havent managed to give him his Polish lessons today (booo mum!) buttttttttttttttt he didnt resist the bath as much today (yaay!)
And the bits of patches on his head are less today, so i am assuming i should continue putting Vaseline on rather then olive oil: because it would dry out and id need to keep applying it. i have made a complaint to higher Health Authorities: regarding for the way my GP Practise is running lately. Just waiting for a call back regarding as to how they will be solving this childish issues ASAP!!!! ggrrrrrr
...he's fast asleep here beside me, as i am typing this up :)
<3
MyTreasure
...... not completely sure how i would want to use this section of mine. Let me get back to you all about this chapter :)
MyBeauty/MyFashion/MyHealth/MyLife
:Remedies
i thought, since my mum is a herbal medicine practician: id share all that i know and find out with all of you.
Plus we all know in this life, nothing shared: is nothing really gained, isnt it. So this is me doing my part in this all :)
So the last 3 weeks i have been washing my hands and face with sugar. Yes thats right, you read it correctly: i said Sugarrrrr!
Reason i started using sugar almost like an exfoliator, is because my hands started to feel soooo rough and my face felt like a mask on my head lol from being up soo much and trying to keep up and maintain a simple routine for me and my son (a new mums struggle haha). Anyways, so yh my hands and face are as soft as my sons bottom cheeks :P
No seriously though, its soft and super sensitive now. It is as if the sugar restored all that got damaged on my hands and face.
ok i have to admit that at first, its a little rough on the skin, especially your face: but after a day or three, you'll get used to it, and you will crave for that moment when you wash it off and it reveals your new, softer, cleaner skin :)))
Ok so here is how i do:
you wash your face and hands, a few times with some running cold water: make sure the face and hands are clean of any dirty, make-up etc before you wash them with cold water ok. Then after you have washed them with cold water: grab a spoonful of sugar and just wash your hands and face with it: as though you would do with soap. Continue to do so for a few minutes. Try to relax and almost like massage your hands and face. Do not forget to close your eyes when doing so with your face; for the sugar can really sting your eyes badly. and we dont want that now, do we.....
After those few minutes, rinse the sugar off with some cold water again. Once done and all the sugar is washed of your hands and face: look at the results in the mirror before you tap dry your face with a clean, preferably with a cotton, towel. Once you have done that,
apply your usual cream/moisturiser etc.
Please let me know after a few weeks, what the results were like: and how you found this simple but golden remedy. Thank you :))))
My Thought Of The Day/Week
in this chapter i will be sharing with you all, the things that are on my mind: just a whole lot of little topics thrown in one chapter....
like one big jigsaw puzzle made up from sooo many shapes and sizes aka topics!
L.
i just wished you lived close enough so i could punch you in your face to get some of your senses back! ggrrrrr!!
Gustav
<3
i was cleaning up my old myspace page: which ive put on private now and literally deleted everyone off my friendslist. To be honest, it was a page i had when i was younger, crazier and super active lol let just say i have grown ALOT since then.... well basically i started reading old messages and looking at pictures that look like theyve been taking a century or three ago 0_o
Reading those messages and seeing those pictures made me realise just HOW much i miss Gustav. Ive always missed him: just didnt know HOW much until this evening :(
It just goes to show that, some times you need bigger reasons to put into words how it is you are exactly feeling about something or someone.
I have been shown that i miss him terribly: from our silly little but very long conversation online to his spontaneous text messages to him just being himself. Super caring, real and always out there to do the best he can for himself and for those around him!! i truly HEART this guy, and just dont know where all this is taking me........ i obviously thought i know, back in 2008, but ermmm after tonight, i dont think i am as sure as i was before i logged onto Myspace page this evening :s
Life is a funny little road, and it makes me hurt laughing: how i can not be patient enough to see what tomorrow has in store for me.... only because i am soo excited about what today has shared with me already: and i know what the past has taught me.... So surely, the tomorrow can not be bad, can it?
i just wished....... (ssshhhh)
dont think i am as comfortable saying this right now.
x
